all i gotta say is wow! I’m stressin way too much.

First of all, why does my step freakin dad alway gotta get on me about Mimi (my dog.) alway complaining how i don’t take care of her and what not. THAT’S CRAP!!! I’m tired of him freakin complaing about it!!!!! It’s making me go crazy. i’m the only one that normally does. just because he walks her everytime he comes home, and he’s the one that buys her the food he thinks he does more than i do? Not even bro. Maybe if you guys let her live in the house instead of the cold garage i could do more than i’m limited to do. I can’t spend most of my day in the garage. might as well make me live there too. If you’re gonna constantly complain about it, why’d you give me her in the first place? quit getting on my butt about how you’re gonna give her away. DO IT if you’re gonna say it, cause i’m already tired of hearing the same thing. only reason why she always stinks is because she’s in the dang garage where we cook and we put all the fishing gear. It’s so annoying to hear the same thing everyday! I’m already stressing trying to graduate school and i still wanna live life as a teenager. I’m starting to find white hairs in my head bro and you just wanna make my life harder with this. Always make me feel like i wanna just give up with this family and run away. I hate having to put up with this everyday. I can only handle so much. God is always with me and he’s helping me with the wieght on my shoulders but i hate to pray for the same thing every time. Now i got the problem that i’m ruining my relationship with my mom. i dont deserve anything that my mom gives me because i never freakin listen and i always gotta lose everythin she gives me. I’m not worth my mom’s love. I always lie to her, and i never talk to her. i always complain that she doesn’t care about me but i always wanna see the negative side of it. see? i’m already stressing enough. i dont need anymore. To top everything off, i’m almost 17 and i have the back of a 71 year old. i’m now going through everyday fiighting to walk straight. I just have so much to handle. i’m glad to have God in my life cause i dont know how i would be taking all of this. I’m sorry Tumblr followers but i just really needed to take this out. Any advice or help would be loved.

One Love, Rj Yango

God’s work. Not even at its best. #Blessed

mizelyjane:

Soul Reserved (Taken with instagram)

Soul Reserved: Rj Yango, Ian Domingo, Jr Batang, April Domingo..

mizelyjane:

Brother and sister love. (Taken with instagram)

awwwwh yeaaa! she’s trying to push me away -_____-

These guys right here are my cousins. The order from left to right in the picture of us at the cemmetary: Jeff is the eldest and he’s 26, Jr is the youngestand just turned 16 in May, I’m the 2nd youngest and i’m turning 17 in October, Jon is Jeff tounger brother and also the 2nd oldest at the age of 21. I know these guy are my cousins, but to me…. These guy are MY BROTHERS! Out of all the people in the world, besides the ones i live with, they’re the ones that i’ve spent most of my life with.
The reason why i want them as my first post is because i’m scared for whats coming ahead of us. To be more specific, i’m scared that we’ll all seperate. Let’s break it down.
Jeff is getting married in October (a day before my brithday) to Mizely, his long term girlfriend now. Plus, he just landed a job not too long ago, and he’s gonna move to Renton after they get married in Hawaii. After that, He’s gonna be a pastor and they’re going to have their own family. That’s cute right?
Jon has been having a job for a while now and aready has his girlfriend, which is Jane. He’s the one that gives me my bomb haircuts by the way. anyway, he’s already been busy most of the time because of his job and other things which only lets us see him on the weekends during church and basketball. So this shows me that the seperation is already starting…
Jr goes to the same school as me and we’re in the same grade. But the story with him is what’s going to happen when he gets a job or even after we graduate. We might not go to the same college which would make that impossible for him to hang out. Even though he lives like 2 minutes away from me we hardly go to eachothers houses unles one is sleeping over at the others.
As for me, after i graduate i’m going to the military, and i’m planning on going to Northwest University. This is going to make my life super busy, mosrtly because of the miitary stuff.
When i add evertyhing up… i see us barely being able to see eachother or having it be hard for us to have the times where e jsut chill nad play video games like NBA 2kwhatever. It’s sad to say that we’re all growing up :( I know for sure that i love these guys to death, and i’d do anything to make sure they’re safe and nothing happens to them. We all love our one and only God, We’re all there for eachother, and we’re all ALWAYS gonna have that strong relationship. But my fear is always the “What if?”
All in all… I love my BROTHERS. I know in the end, we’ll be together in heaven when its all said and done.

One love,
Rj Yango